Make me laugh.

2010-01-17T19:54:00.003+08:00

“Though dreams can be deceiving, like faces are to hearts, they serve for sweet relieving, when fantasy and reality lie too far apart.”

2009-12-24T23:51:00.002+08:00

“Dear love, for nothing less than thee

Would I have broke this happy dream,

It was a theme / For reason, much too strong for fantasy,

Therefore thou waked'st me wisely;

yet My dream thou brok'st not, but continued'st it.”

John Donne

I was stirred then

2009-12-20T22:59:00.002+08:00

“You can close your eyes to the things you do not want to see, but you cannot close your heart to the things you do not want to feel.”

2009-12-18T19:17:00.002+08:00

with balloons and bubbles,

Happy brithday(belated) IQAH!

xoxo

2009-12-16T11:40:00.002+08:00

i'm screwed.i cant do neither my physics nor chemistry hw.

sos

2009-12-14T13:33:00.008+08:00

I feel really grateful for
letting me have a buoyant time with my two twins brothers.
Though they're naive, they've always tried to cheer everyone up.
With the smiles and giggles,they've always successfully transformed my days into hearty and alluring ones.

xoxo

2009-12-10T17:43:00.004+08:00

Shall get ready for tuition tonight.
hashimah will joining for tuition
nhgiggs,i cant wait to hit the books tonight.
shall have ample amount of candies.
like yeah!

big day to my dear friend who's enjoying at a dance.

xoxo

2009-12-07T22:42:00.001+08:00

“I am glad we do not have to try to kill the stars. Imagine if each day a man must try to kill the moon. The moon runs away. But imagine if a man each day should have to try to kill the sun? We are born lucky. Yes, we are born lucky.”
Ernest Hemingway

2009-12-04T22:42:00.005+08:00

I was rummaging through my photo albums and i found these photos haha.

I'm really obsessed with Polaroid camera and gess,these pictures are fake polaroids.

I just realised i always open my mouth wide open whenever dad took pictures of me with bro last time.

no idea why i did that for.-_-

today,i had a lot of fun with my dearest girlfriends.faizah and hashimah.

and i've got a bad news.

my phone 'broke' into two.

i dropped the phone and it crashed on the floor into two pieces.

the screen just came off.

i'm dead.

2009-11-26T23:01:00.003+08:00

everything just sucks

mum and dad grounded me cos i didn't clean up my room.

seriously..what's the problem with a messy room?

i mean i can get everyhting cleared up when i'm in the mood to do it.

like hell.

it really infuriates me when brother keeps talking about me behind my back.

fortunately, i managed to rent a couple of dvds.

this will make me preoccupied while i'm at home.

i just ended watching twilight -again

Im not sure how long i can last here at home.

i'll just try to sneak out when they're not at home.

maybe next week they'll finally let me out,

no i will make sure i'll get to watch new moon.

and yes,i shall find a tutor who's willing to teach a slow leaner like me.

someone help me get out of this place.

i'll look forward to next week.

I'll definitely touch the books,i hope.

hashimah is leaving next week for OBS.

gonna miss her badly.

you can do it,NHG!

2009-11-15T12:34:00.006+08:00

oh yes,
I survived OBS.
After having to endure carrying a 5-8 kg bag during a long land expedition,
having to pee in a forested area facing the sea
having to sustain seasick for 6 hour of kayak.
bah.
I almost wanted to drop out from the damn camp.
but Cook just keep me going and be forward looking.
oh yes,thanks to shona,lucas,mark,yana,jing wen,rush,wei jia,jia liang,yan ren,syafiq,liyi and syamin,aliff and yanyi.

It wasnt that bad after all.
guess whose group got an instuructor with a sexy voice?
haha.
lindsay and syafiqah never stop talking about afan during the last few nights of the camp.
hah!(:

“Don't walk in front of me; I may not follow. Don't walk behind me; I may not lead. Just walk beside me and be my friend.”
Albert Camus

And Happy Birthday To Iblan Daniel! (:

2009-11-06T17:47:00.007+08:00

“Still and all, why bother? Here's my answer. Many people need desperately to receive this message: I feel and think much as you do, care about many of the things you care about, although most people do not care about them. You are not alone.”
Kurt Vonnegut, Jr. quotes(American writer,b.1822)

2009-11-03T17:13:00.008+08:00

“"I wonder what Piglet is doing," thought Pooh.
"I wish I were there to be doing it, too."
- Winnie the Pooh”

2009-10-30T18:04:00.005+08:00

Yay.
I'm back to blogging again.

I just want to thank those who helped during the clamor of exam period.
Though,I didn't reached my aims and parents' expectations,
I'm really gratuitous to God for answering my prayers although my result isn't a delectable one.
I'll shall listen to the teachers and not let them nag about dropping my pure sciences almost every time they see me.
I'll mug painstakingly and work my butts off from the computer and bed.
shall cut off my pigging time.
Shall exercise more with hashimah and remain healthy.
and yes,hashimah...thanks for your advices and encouragements.

There's so much to during the hols:
-Bridging program[2-6 nov]
-A maths remedial and retest[if i'm not wrong,4 and 5 nov]
-OBS Camp!(: [9-13 nov]
-Sec 3 camp [ 18-21 nov]

This November will be packed with mostly camps.
and yeah.I'll try to manage my time circumspectly.

-
no more pigging and lazing around!

“We have no right to ask when a sorrow comes, 'Why did this happen to me?' unless we ask the same question for every joy that comes our way.”

2009-10-16T18:25:00.007+08:00

I shall put a pause here.
I've tried letting go of all I've held onto
jeez.
All they know was to give vindictive comments.
It just made me feel perturbed.
I'm peculiarly ambiguous of my future.
-

2009-10-02T19:45:00.005+08:00

I'm the most dumbest person on earth.
I dropped my pouch somewhere when i'm on my way to tm (no,i went there to get some stationery)
I took bus service 168 and i've got not fcuking idea where exactly it is now.
my only guess will be the bust stop or the in the bus.
geez.
i'm grateful i didnt place any notes(except for coins) and my phone inside.
or else i will be stuck in tampines,pennilees,
but,it contains my ezlink,c.badge and my thumbdrive.
bummer.
please tell me the receptionist from transitlink is gonna call me any sooner.
cos i just made a lost item report.
mum and dad have no idea about this.
and they dont need to unless they ask me about my ezlink card.
D:
blur as always.
piffle.
will be on hiatus for the time being.
i need to hit the books.
will be updating tru twitter,

edited/

2009-09-25T23:20:00.005+08:00

Today was filled with much hoopla!
Hashimah and me agreed to study during the evening at the national library.
not only that,both of us exactly know why we chose national library at bugis.
It was for the sake of shopping!
haha.
did a sweet half and an hour studying there.
I did my tuition assignment!
and at around 7.40 sharp,we rushed to the nearest mosque for prayers.
we still had the time to take pictures along the way.
i wont really elaborate much.
but Hashimah had really lifted up my mood after all the hard days that I had in school.
and yeap, I had a lot of fun studying and shopping with her.
and whenever i do my prayers in the mosque,
it just somehow endowed me with a calm and relaxed sensation.
The journey back home was seriously much more sappy as
we gave ourselves 30 minutes to shop,eat and get on the train on the dot.
Both of us bought ear studs.
I didn't get to buy the flats while Hashimah didn't get to buy her earpiece due to our curfews which were supposed to be before 10pm.
but,gosh.
today will never be the same like any other day.
I'm looking forward to another day during the hols,honey!
Oh,i'm beat.
good night!

2009-09-24T22:06:00.004+08:00

screw you brother.
instead of making the condition of the computer better,you made it worst,
furthermore,without any warning being informed to me, you reprogram the computer
with all my folders just vanished like that.
and the computer is seriously lagging and it loads much more slower than before.huh.
so much for being so called the know it all person in this house.
damn you,brother.
i'll get my revenge soon.

hey, this week has been a roller coaster ride for me.
first,i failed my tests again.
I struggled through my overdue assignments.
the teachers just kept on nagging.should i say,this particular teacher.(hmph)
I have been counting the number of hours to the end of the sch every single day.
trust me.i dont like going to school.
I can't stand the interminable clatter.

jeez
why am i palavering about this when i should be studying for trigo test?

I felt this picture is a mind-blowing picture.
sometimes,I even thought of becoming a photographer when i grow up.
it just fascinates me when others can take pretty pictures from all over the world.
haha.
oh,i cant go for the india trip.:(

2009-09-22T17:05:00.003+08:00

Selamat Hari Raya.
Maaf zahir dan batin.

2009-09-13T17:42:00.003+08:00

I hasn't been updating my blog for quite some time.
These holidays had been mostly preoccupied by extra lessons, shopping spree, class outing@swensen's and study dates with hashimah.
and yeap, I had a wonderful time during the holidays especially with my beloved family and friends.
Recently, I hadn't been feeling well for the these few days and decided to make a doctor tip for more details.
A urine and a blood test was done. so yea,the lab result will only be out in a couple of days.
hmm, iftar with taufik is not going to be dream come true.
haha!But still,I'm still available on thursday.(:
so syafiqah, I cant wait to break fast together:D

2009-09-01T12:42:00.005+08:00

Yesterday was AWESOME!
Let's start with school.
I was involved in the teachers' day concert.Had to carry out my duty.I was sneezing all day long.and i was out of tissue papers.I guessed I had spread the germs right?oops.Had a brilliant time with the councillors.
Off-ed to fairprice with iqah when school ended.Bought my favorite instant fried rice and Campbell Cream of chicken.
Met Faizah on the bus and I think i was out of my mind to follow her back to yuneng.i was sick for god sake.And,I saw that 15 yrs old vjc girl-.-
Bumped into Hashimah,aisyah and amira,hungshen,roman,arshad and a few old friends.Waited in the canteen for that PE teacher to come.Apparently,we wanted to see the sports hall and play somesports there.But,the security there was tight.so yea,D:
Walking home with Faizah and Hashimah was wondrous.(:

That's all for yesterday.

blog is dead.geez,i dont mind at all.

2009-08-23T13:48:00.008+08:00

"Six years of friendship&i'm still counting..."

I'm glad that i did my overdue e.maths homework
and managed to complete it(though,there's a few blanks.)
tuition was canceled yesterday.
so basically,i'll have to do some self-studying for physic and chem.
like really, i have to catch up with phys.I can't even do the homework.nebbish.
I'll have to rush tru it tomr, as usual.
i gotta thank nhg for the F.gift
and the study date.(:
you cheered me up,why should i be mad at you?haha!

2009-08-20T14:18:00.000+08:00

"The good times of today are the sad thoughts of tomorrow."

-Bob Marley

2009-08-17T18:04:00.003+08:00

A year olderr!
dad's big day will be tomr!
so love todaayyy(:
had and expected,monstrous text msg from someone
which literally brighten my day.
won't elaborate more:D
but thanks for the birthday wishes especially 3E1,zakiah,iqah,aisyah and ..many more!
and murni ,i.love.your.card! :D

now playing: smile by Michael.Jackson

2009-08-15T21:24:00.003+08:00

Simply Alone

Simply alone as an angel cries
Becoming empty as all her
Hope hides
Simply alone she sits by a window
Bearing wishes of death to Un-fold
Hope lies

Simply alone with out her own home
Beside a story of healing worry
Simply alone and simply Un-known
Hope cries
Simply because she is simply alone
Hope hides hope lies hope cries does hope die?
Or does hope again try?

by susan covington

I tried to venture into the wilderness simply because I'm tired of lies and disappointment.though,mine will never be the same as yours.it still burden me as much yours do.I won't stop running till the very end.If this is gonna be the outcome,so be it.everyday,every week,it just keep on repeating,like it'll never stop.it'll be a long way to get outta here,though..sigh.

2009-08-15T20:39:00.002+08:00

here you go,zakiah(:

Recently,i've been spending most of my time outdoors instead of studying.
no surprise,that mum is starting to sense that my grades are slipping.naff.
so,
here you go.
9th aug.a very special day,uh-huh.
headed down to Singapore arts museum for the stupefying flea market with friends.
sadly,i couldn't join in the convivial atmosphere near esplanade to catch the astounding fireworks.
~~over-protective parents.~~

but,cheerios to jean,sheril and zakiah! for the peachy day :D

2009-08-07T18:01:00.002+08:00

p/s internet explorer screw up the blog's layout.it shud be in the middle.
just realised that cos' currently i'm using morzilla.
it looks fine in morzilla.

now playing:/
Want by Adam Lambert.
November
Not much to remember
You were not in sight
December
Change of the weather
You were by my side

Love is all we want
Love
Love is all we need
Is all that we really want

No matter where the day goes
I know you're close by
Changes in the seasons
It's just what's required

Love is all we want
Love
Love is all we need
Is all that we really want

Love is all we want
Love
Love is all we need
Is all that we really want

Yeah love, love, love
Is we what we want
Is what we want
Is what we really need
Love, love, love, love
Is what we want
Is what we want
It's what we really need

Yeah yeah love
Is what we want
Is what we really want
Yeah hey yeah
Love

2009-08-06T17:55:00.001+08:00

Silence, Emptiness, And Confusion

by Bek

Silence builds an awful wreckage of a girl
It feeds on loneliness and creates a void
Gray shadows haunt and torment and torture
A teenager is stricken and destroyed

There is no sound of laughter or happiness here
The little one has thrown in the towel today
Somber, melancholy moods decay the soul
It is futile to hope and dream and pray

Emptiness builds a home in this woman
In this girl, this child where hollows have bred
A deepening sea of nowhereness consumes
And eats away at every connecting thread

Confusion feeds like a savage inside her,
Leaving nothing considered worthy remains
Destined to walk through life less ordinary
Alone, exiled, different and disdained.

Though,i despise literacy.it was one random poem and it was somehow written in
a way that shows what I'm feeling right now. piffle
Despite my raunchy grades,thanks to my tutor for giving all the
encouragement and that 3 am msg that seriously made me cognizant that
i can actually overcome this f-ing problem.
I'm not sure how's mum and dad gonna react seeing this semester straight Fs test papers
naff
i guess i was oblivious to my loved ones' feelings.

2009-08-02T16:19:00.006+08:00

i've got no peculiar reason on what makes me wanna post again.
i bet no one would know about this.
hmm.
i shall brag about boyslikegirls
heard of their new song,love dunk?
uh-huh.
:D

that's my tutor.
we were at cafe galilee yest.

Boys Like Girls - "Love Drunk"

2009-06-07T13:56:00.003+08:00

i've relinked/linked all.
(:
oh,happy 6th birthday to twin brothers!

2009-06-05T10:12:00.002+08:00

uhhh
running nose strikes again.
supposed to study with zakiah today
but hehs, i still havent gotten presents for my deary twins.
sorry zakiah hun.next week im on!(:
im still not done with shopping yesterday.
i got my heels,animal tee and hairbands!
decided not to buy the dress.
still need:
a sling/shoulder bag[probably buying it at the flea market],fake specs,more tees,black folder for books,frames,and gifts [ehem ehem]

the twists and turns in this life bewilder me.

2009-06-03T10:14:00.002+08:00

like the song,Permanent sang by david cook.

tag replies:
arshad&lindasay&shona:I will link you guys soon(:

2009-06-02T18:42:00.003+08:00

what i can i say more?
tantrums?
updates tru twitter
since it's much better to update there with the fact that it has this sms service to update.
and,nobody cares what i typed there.which is a positive thing to know.
[edited]

2009-06-01T18:19:00.002+08:00

i still havent got a chance to do disentangle from my worries and fears
i've been feeling really sick after the heavy lunch at bedok corner
and hell, i might have to change my tutor.i cant bear leaving lizhen.
dad's still giving me the cold shoulder everytime we sit at the dining table.

sorry. this isnt me.i'll try to reply tags and link those people i have promised as soon as possible.let me get things settled first.

2009-05-30T10:47:00.003+08:00

a rosy red ladybird with black spots all over its body.
feeling incoherent with affliction

updates thru twitter.

2009-05-21T15:46:00.002+08:00

haha!
watched the recent video uploaded
i guess kris allen deserve to be crowned as the idol yeah?(:
like the the way he sang the song no boundaries(:
iqah and yasmin,i admit he's gd looking.
off to watch boys over flowers.

2009-05-17T13:39:00.003+08:00

just shushhh
say no more
you never fail scrutinizing me
i know my weakness
i saw through the facade
hey,it's not about you.

I'll be using the time to watch Korean dramas.
the show emblazoned deeply in my mind.
(:
i'll keep posting tru twitter.

2009-05-12T17:59:00.001+08:00

friend,
I'm sorry.

neutral neutral neutral

2009-05-08T15:25:00.004+08:00

hey!
today is pretty humid with the fervent heat
everyone was complaining boisterously while fanning themselves
and yeap
i'm feeling all radiant after the exams period
but i'm sure it wont last long after the exams scripts will be returned to us.
they're sure gonna mortify me for the whole day.
and oh,
guess what?
went to tampines one with iqah!
haha!
well,
first of all it was kinda monotonous
we practically did window shopping
and oh,
i bought instant cake mix for mothers' day
will be baking a cake when mum's away on sunday
so back to tamp one
we tried out this game at one of the arcade shop
it's like some kind of a roller coaster ride
&it was shitty!
wasted like more than 4 bucks for that!
worst of all,i got hit by a glass door
i mean i was exploring this shop
and out of the blue,i didn't realise that i was walking straight towards the glass door
like there was a loud bang
and the shoppers stared at me
gosh!
they should have put up a sign saying that it's a glass door
jeez
thanks iqah for the great time =D

soo,
i'm not sure what's my plan for the long weekend
it's either i'll be shopping with mum for photo frames at plaza sing
or i'll be staying at home
since mum has not really recover from her asthma
get well soonn

oh,please be original.you should start thinking about being authentic when it come's to brainstorming(:

2009-05-07T15:31:00.003+08:00

what the hell am i doing here?
feeling dispirited
and really
ever since i made up my mind that day
i felt gosh i'm going to be the one of the last few in my class.
help!
it's what i deserve

i'm trying to fathom out what's my next move is.
damn damn damn

and dammit malaysia trip is postponed.
whereas tuition will resume to june.
tutor taking her exams(: gd luck!
oh,who's going to comfort me when i get back my results?
shitty results!

a maths is tomr!

cover it up,burn the proof,or bluff all the way.

2009-05-01T17:13:00.002+08:00

i'm sort of giving up
idk
mid year exams sucks this year
it's already too late for me to start revising
it's too competitive
i guess friends will do anything to over take you
i'll just have to give in
i'm tired of pretending
go go go ahead
what should i do?
hope fever will subside by tomr.
or maybe i should hope i'll recover till mid year ends
whatever it is dad seems to be not bothered about me.
uhhh.
-

people may think my face was sulky or whatever it is yest.
sorry.
i wasnt feeling well.
you can't expect me to smile when i'm sick rite?(:
sensible enough?

2009-04-28T23:21:00.001+08:00

oh,
sis is at grandma's place
she's been having fever for more than a days
mum's asthma getting worst
it's already two trips to hospital for treatment
and i can't believe all of these are happening in the midst of the exam period
and,yeah i kinda of like miss raudhah
k,fine i miss her.
and whoah,
i;m still not assleep yet,
tomr is english paper!!!

i got to to admit i look dumb and yes,i'm dumb like patrick.
jeez.

2009-04-26T14:10:00.003+08:00

these days have been really monotonous
dad has been really busy nowadays
it's been two weeks since we had a family outing.
and mum takes that as a good omen cos we don't have to waste petrol
right.
and i'm feeling really apathetic when it comes to studies.
it's like as if i'm no longer feeling the zest to perform well.
i don't know.

and oh,
links in my blog aren't updated
reason is that i accidentally deleted the recent ones
sry.

I guess I'm a loser in everything like what my bro used to say when I was a kid.

gees.

2009-04-17T17:55:00.000+08:00

geez
stomach not feeling really that good.
what have gone wrong?

2009-04-12T16:55:00.001+08:00

ok.
it's fixed!
haha!
and oh!
i love confession if the shopaholic!
and mum cooked celery stew today!
=D

2009-04-09T18:34:00.002+08:00

oh no!
i just realised the skin layout doesnt work well in IE!
and perhaps, morzilla too.
gagaga.

dearest zakiah,
don't let it bother you.i'm sure things will go swiftly and smoothly without you realising it.
haha!
gd luck,honey!

2009-04-04T18:50:00.002+08:00

bohooo!
i can't upload music form playlist.com
anymore.
furthermore,no songs can be downloaded from there either.
D:
and all my doc,image,music are gone.
felt so agitated to know that bro deleted them to restore this crashed comp.
fcuk.
oh,
mum and me havent been saying a word since thurs's nite.
she's been blaming for the dramatic increase in the electricity bills.
just because i used the comp everyday druing the march hols.
like wth?
bro has been staying at home for more than 3 weeks
and he's been using the laptop
with the charger plugged.
how can she totally ignore that?
i just can't stand no saying a word to her.
partly becos i'm getting sick of skipping meals and surviving on biscuits to fill my stomach.
great.
let's see how it goes for the night.
i know i shouldn't be doing this.
oh yesterday was superb!
iqah,get welll soon k!
and zakiah congrats!(:

2009-03-29T22:29:00.001+08:00

there's something wrong with the codes.
i'll do fix it up next week.
sorry.

2009-03-27T14:09:00.006+08:00

absent from school today D:

had a fever.
hahas.i guessed it's because of yesterday shooting.(i failed the bloody test.jeez)
no i mean,the time we had to march in the rain
well,we had to or else we will be back in school beyond 7.30 if we have to wait for the rain to stop.
i didnt really tell my mum i'm having a fever/
reason is i don't want to go to the doctor.
maybe,i'm feeling much better now.
and oh,
thanks Zakiah and Aisyah,
for their help with the homework(:

just realised i've missed a lot today.
i'm going to miss the fun we had in class,s.
geez.

i'm off to fill my stomach/

2009-03-22T16:09:00.002+08:00

i don't like e learning.
especially maths.D:

oh,shuhhhs
i wish dad's here.
he's been really workaholic
he's sick but refuses to take a medical leave.
mum has been really naggish
yea she's a mother.somehow explains everything.

ok.
i'm off to watch ToGetHer next episodes.
you should try watch it some time.
haha!

tomr's plan
-school!!!
after sch,head to popular.
-replace the book.
-back home.

2009-03-20T13:34:00.004+08:00

i want to escape into a secluded and peaceful place
surrounded with roses and daisies.
having only the sun and the moon as my only companions
the sun,gives me the love and joy i need.
the moon,listens to my secrets as i whisper through the window.
(:
-
i seriously need to go to a place to think calmly.
i can't even do my work with the twins
getting frenetic easily.
:D
so i tried reading poems about Life.
Trying to inspire myself and i found this poem/

Reflection

By MARIA GORSKI

Sometimes I wonder why I am here
Wonder if anyone would notice if I disappeared
Just one second that’s all you need
Your once perfect world can feel so weird
I have nothing you want, but everything I need
I look in the mirror and see my biggest fear
I a standing alone screaming and telling
But know one can hear
There is no pain, I am always numb
Everyone I love has been pushed out
One by one
There’s no place to hide, feeling empty inside
Standing there watching as my life flies by
Just one second that’s all you need
Your once perfect world can feel so weird.

2009-03-19T17:11:00.007+08:00

Fix my own breakfast today;
and mum is pleased with me today.
cos i cleaned up my room
^^
oh,sorry iqah sebab tk bilang awal-awal.

criticized carpingly.
but I'm
trying not to disparage the whole bunch of you.

2009-03-18T17:29:00.005+08:00

physics lesson was hectic!

i'm not sure if there's tuition today.
t.teacher didnt sms anything about holiday lesson.
i'll just go to my nenek's house and wait till she comes
hope she's not coming.
i wish she postpone the lesson to tomr.
for some reasons^^
i couldnt find any malay homework in moodle!!

i turned around;
and i see a halo above your head.
how did you change fast?
i could sense the absence of me in you.
you seems to be engrossed in your own world.

2009-03-17T15:05:00.003+08:00

I feel as if i'm a nobody here and there

that tagline is what i'm feeling right now.
i don't feel appreciated for helping that person.
helping someone who doesnt pay you back with good deeds.
D:
mum bought for each of us tim tam cookies,
couldnt restain myself form eating it.
even though i'm still coughing.
chocolate is my indulgence,
hahas.

2009-03-15T13:18:00.002+08:00

i'm currently into ToGetHer
It's a Taiwanese Drama
watch it in channel u every sat 9.30pm
some random stuffs. :D

2009-03-15T10:17:00.003+08:00

Dad promised us that yesterday he'll bring us somewhere.
But things went wrong.
Term one has ended.
with all the uphill struggle to pass all the tests
3 underlines
that undoubtedly includes physics and maths
it's either test 1 or test 2
that make the reports slip ugly

Friday
it's been undeniably tough for me to catch up with all the drills
it's certainly hard for me to know that I'm the slowest among them
i just wanted to broke down
and just gave up
how can i possibly go on if i keep the whole squad held up just because of me
those eyes
that frightened me.

weekend.
things went unexpectedly wrong.
i wanted to enjoy it fully.
needless trouble came into my way
I'm sick.
not a cold.but a cough.
trying out a healthy lifestyle by eating fruits and vegetables everyday
oh,i managed to find an ebook of eclipse.
so much of me to wait for the library's book reservation.

shine with me
shed tears with me
like you used to,h.
cos,right now i need you.

2009-03-10T21:58:00.004+08:00

I just wish time will speed up.
so that i can enjoy the holidays.
:)
why do i often fall sick at night?
dustbin will be full of my tissue paper
and my family will have to tolerate with the noise of me blowing my nose
It's been happening to me almost everyday
especially weekdays.
weak immune system,i guessed
maybe it's time i need to go to the doctor.
oh,i 've overspent on food.
good or bad news?
-
i wish i could cuddle my blanket on my bed
safe and sound
as the time past by
dreaming about things that never will never happen.
i do believe in farytales/
i pray for things to happen
god,help me get through all these.

2009-03-07T18:27:00.004+08:00

wretched and forlorn/
feeling disconsolate even in the midst of friends.
dispirited and downhearted
what have i done to you?

2009-03-01T13:18:00.005+08:00

you don't have to brag about it.
you don't have to lie about me.
you don't have to pretend.
you don't have to compare my grades with yours.
you don't have to keep silent.
yes,you don't have to do all these to me.
choose another person.why me?
i'm sorry to say all these.

~~i'm always the one who had to apologise.though it isn't my mistake.~~

2009-02-22T19:52:00.003+08:00

2009-02-22T17:37:00.003+08:00

"I didnt know who i was supposed to be at fifteen."
-Taylor Swift

blame adolescence.
hate it when every teen has to go through it.
when i come to think about what I've wrote in this blog,
~~I realised I felt much better to pour everything here.~~
~~rather than..~~
~~uh,nvm.~~

oh,this weekend i didnt fall sick.

i rather go than staying here.

2009-02-20T22:22:00.003+08:00

i'm never going to have a cheerful post this year.
i've trying to add sunshine and rainbows to these gloomy blog.

jeez.
guess what?
-i almost got knocked down by a van by a few centimeters

-lost my hp in the library.didnt realize it till i almost reached bedok inter.
prayed so hard that an angel will be the one who found my phone.
got it back!

nowadays,
I'm really feeling helpless in my class.
It seems as if i've got no one to turn to.
maybe i'm just invisible
nowdays,
i don't find pleassure in thing i loved to do
nowadays,
i think about death.will people be happier when i'm gone?

crap!

2009-02-15T12:28:00.002+08:00

I'm recovering.

2009-02-14T18:31:00.000+08:00

new song!
taylor swift-Fifteen!

gastric pain is back
=(

2009-02-14T17:37:00.006+08:00

[edited]

damn
aunt really scares me off with that forwarded email.
like seriously,
pictures of corpes
not sure if they real or not.
but gosh
it's like so frightening
felt so stupid
jeez

-

Mum just went out with Dad.
Both of them refused to tell us where they're going.
and,
i'm supposed to get the twins bathed,prepare for their dinner.
babysittin.

ANYONE CAN LENT ME THE BOOK, NEW MOON? XD
tsk tsk

~~you crashed my day~~

2009-02-14T15:54:00.002+08:00

First gastric pain9yest)
then, vomiting
then muscle aches
and now diarrhea
what's wrong with my body today?
it's already more then4 trips to the toilet.
geez
geez
i can' concentrate on my homework.
:(

2009-02-12T17:17:00.002+08:00

yes.i'm jealous of them.
geez
it's crazy.

2009-02-11T12:44:00.004+08:00

jeez
i miss talking to a friend.
just a real one will do.
i just feel lonely inside
i really am.

failed to watch the curios case of Benjamin buttons online.jeez.

2009-02-08T11:54:00.002+08:00

anyone can help me with chem?
anyone can help me with my tuition homework?
silence.

i don't want to leave this wonderful weekend.

2009-02-08T09:52:00.002+08:00

geez.
sometimes,
i just get mad for my stupdity.
it seems that i still couldn't get the logarithm formulas into my head
my tution teacher was really patient with me despite having tor revise everything about log for more than 3 week
and,
yes.i'm still stuck with my tuition hw.
and she's coming over at 2 pm today.
shucks.
am i that *tupid?
-

2009-02-01T16:32:00.003+08:00

I have been falling sick really often these days
recovering form fever
why must i fall sick during weekends?
the last four holidays,
I had to suffer with running nose.
now,fever and running nose plus cough.
gtg.

2009-01-31T11:39:00.002+08:00

why must there be a rule that saying no one is allowed
to use the computer after 7pm except for the adults
(and my brother is considered as an adult)?

like wth.
and furthermore,
i'm not allowed to use the comp on mon to thurs.
that's unfair.

ah yes i'm getting sick.*cough*

yest,late for t.thanks to them.annoyed.

2009-01-27T18:20:00.003+08:00

not looking forward to tomr.

2009-01-25T16:55:00.004+08:00

photos @marina barrage
=D
will update more.
smart sister went to leave the cam in the car

I want a geek specs.(:
-

2009-01-24T18:02:00.002+08:00

I wanna watch Bride Wars.
or
Inkheart
anyone free tomorrow?
hahas

-
the weekends plus the holidays are here.
4 days to enjoy
4days to suffer with school 'junks'
i'll endure with it
i shan't disappoint anyone
endure is the only thing i can do
to get to the end.

finally things getting better in the new environment.
i haven't officially dropped pure bio.i just need a parents letter in order for it to be approved.
i can't stop thinking about it.

2009-01-18T18:04:00.004+08:00

i'm feeling feverish right now
i dont know what's wrong with me nowdays
getting sick too often
i'm not sure if it's possible for me to go to school tomr

i wish i can lay my hands off from school work for just one day
but it seems impossible
crap

2009-01-17T11:40:00.004+08:00

i'm not used to everything there.
though,it's almost the same as last time.
-
i feel blessed to have twin brothers by my side
this year,
they meant a lot to me.

-
http://gomerch.com/interface/body.php?module=store&catid=5&page=0&id=4
found a site that sells boys like girls fan tee
check it out.
(:
-
i'm planning to drop bio
that means i will be taking only two pures only
physics and chem
havent discussed over the matter with my bio tchr.

it sucks having to be misjudged by someone who you've trusted.

2009-01-15T15:24:00.002+08:00

I dont know why
but i just feel small in my new class.

2009-01-09T18:09:00.002+08:00

mum made me changed my mum
ui just want to buy that damn bag
but in the end she made me changed my mind
i want that ripcurl bag!
):
Im sooo grateful tomr is saturday!
and yes
there's no school.
its's been only 1 week in schoool or to be exact 5days
and i've already find it hard to catch up with the lessons
especially PHYSICS!!
and maths
i'm trying to get my head off the table.
i'm always sleepy in maths class
serious
(:

what's up with them?uh.i dont understand you.

2009-01-04T15:20:00.001+08:00

they have masks under above their skin to disguised themselves

lots of things happened

2008-12-26T16:30:00.003+08:00

sorry for all those post
hard to ignore these people sometimes
guess what
im finally done with the draft for malay compo
no big deal to those who have done it siang2
but to it is
hehes
oh,
before i continue
i want to wish my dearest friend,Nazurah

(:
oks
i just realised how badly nurul wants those photos
still havent edit the pics(feeling guilty)
=S
will do it soon
oh,i badly miss her since hari raya haji
i want catch a movie with with her.Hope aunt allows us.
till here~!

im never looking forward to 2009
and i know it wont be the same in school

2008-12-25T17:18:00.003+08:00

just shove off

say all you want.

if that makes you happy.

i'm exhausted.

2008-12-24T14:29:00.001+08:00

  i think i'm a failure  

2008-12-22T12:17:00.002+08:00

TAGGED BY : Shermaine

1) Do you currently like anyone?
No

2) How about in the past?
Yes.used to last time.

3) Who's the best guy-friend you can trust?
None,cos i doubt he can bet trusted

4)Who's the best girl-friend you can trust ?
I had these friends that i trusted most in primary school.but the friendship just died like that
(:

5)Found the One yet ?
no

6) When do you intend to get one?
when the time is appropriate.

7) Who do you miss most currently ?
err. nurul! my cousin.hehes

8) Has anyone break your heart badly before?
sadly, yesss

9) Have you cried out of jealousy?
yea

10) Name the friends you treasure and cherish the most .
hmm.all the friends that i have met through out my life

11) Who knows your deepest secrets?
deepest?lol.no one of course

12) Has your 1st kiss been given away?
NO!

13) Has anyone just suddenly come up & kiss/hug you?
hug,yes.kiss,no.hahas

14) Do you think you are pretty?
depends on someone with definition of pretty.
well,i dont think so
15) Name people who are hot/beautiful.
dont know.hard to name one

16) Name people who are simply gorgeous
dont know

17) Name people who are pretty .
dont know

18) Name guys who makes you go oh-so-drool.
dont know

19) Name guys who are handsome
dont know

20) Given 3 wishes, what will you wish for?-
1)Grow taller
2)get out of this 'sitution'
3)my family to always be at their best health and happy always

5 victims
must i really name them?
anyone who's free to do so.

guyys
i've got bad news.
i might not be going to attend for the mass dance training(council thingy) and Class outing
my tuition is in the afternoon
mum's afraid i wont be able to make it for tuition in the afternoon after the mass dance
and I've told mum to change the time to the evening
idk
she's go pissed
cos i ve been changing more two times
uuhhh
screwed everything
lahh
dad isnt going to help me i think
he's on mum's side
i'' try to think of something
cos class outing means a lot to me
seriously
okay im feeling terrible about this
i ll try to sms my tutor about this
please,i want go for it
;(

2008-12-21T13:53:00.005+08:00

hahas.the quiz!
Tagged by lin hui (:
The rules that you should obey if you are tagged:
1. each blogger must post these rules.
2. each blogger starts with ten random facts/habbits about themselves.
3. bloggers that are tagged need to write about their own blog.
4. choose ten people to get tagged and list their names .
5. don't forget to live them comment telling them they've been tagged and to read your blog.

Ten Random Facts/Habbits About Me:

1I've got no patience
2.suck at household chores
3.loves to argue with my sister
4.I love BOYS LIKE GIRLS & SECONDHAND SERENADE!=)
5.I just watched twilight and i fell in love with edward's dad.okay,dont comment.=X
6.seldom return my library books on time.true,cos i ve got to pay fines always.hehes
7.im using my old bag next year.random righttt
8. i dont want to go to school
9.i hate school
10.I hate School.okay fine.(:(:

10 people tagged by me :D :
i will break the rule.anyone who wants to do this quiz.(:

-
sorryyy
cant do the quizzes by today.
ayah wants to have a family outing in like 30 min soon
so have to get prepared.

oh guess what,
i went out with mum and sis to town yest
it was such a rare opportunity
usually there will always be ayah or my twins with us
hahahs
spent a mother and daughter time together
gtg.
bye!
=)

2008-12-20T14:35:00.003+08:00

camp.
im back.
one word:FUN!!!
hahas
-
pheewww
spent more than 3 hours do this skin
hehs
decided to put a tagboard above/below every post.
so click "tag here" to tag.or use the navi 'tagboard'
hahas.
i want to go plaza singapura again
mum wants to go there too later.
but depends on ayah
if he allows us
cos we plan to take the public transport
i dont think he allows.he prefers the car.=/
i really need new clothes
somehow
gtg
oh yar,
im tagged to do two quizzes
by shermaine and linhui.
i 'll do it tomr(maybe)
oks

2008-12-15T17:56:00.002+08:00

Happy 14th Birthday,
nur Syafiqah!
(in adv.)
sorry i cant post this on 17 dec due to our camp.
=D
stay happy and healthy always!
and
thanks for all the times you had spent with me
XOXOXO

2008-12-14T16:24:00.002+08:00

everything is in a mess
looks like i have to be mentally prepared.
ahh
needa a buy new shoes
hope dad allows me to buy one
then can meet taufik at eastpoint.
;)
hahs.
will back till next week
will be busy this week
camp>do hw>maybe work?(hahas)

2008-12-12T09:54:00.002+08:00

hate sarcasm
hate people who speak bitterly

-
i miss my samsung phone
i miss the camera esp
cos,sony ericsson phone cam sucks
-
someone help me with math work?
mum just arrange tution for me.
but it's on 23 dec
that means
i'll have to wait for the tutor to teach me
thanks to next week which is almost filled up
uh

2008-12-09T16:42:00.006+08:00

alisha zafira!

alamak,my face.

(she took a pic of her self)

alisha,cutest cousin.beside your little brother,ashraf.

=D

ahh..semangat singapore.hahs.red white.

love this snapshot.

oh,no comments

(;

look at her face.-_-

chubby nyerr

gosh.this pic needed to be edit.no time le.oh,my bro.-_-

alisha.haha.

nurul! ILY!

dear ashraf trying to sleep

ps. Nurul!!
no time to edit,hahas.other pics go friedster maybe by sun.k.sorry sayang

Hari raya haji pictures!

2008-12-07T13:43:00.003+08:00

Today
it sucks
horrifying
meaningful
confused
lost

I hate this feeling
I'm telling ya
cos every time
it makes me feel small and timid of those ppl
and yes,i guess talking to them nicely doesnt work right?
(sigh)

why cant i be given a chance to explain myself?
urgh just shuddup
you ppl always try to make me feel confused and guilty
whatever,please.

thanks dad for the new phone
you cheered me up
wak lik,dont be sad over what had happened today.we will always love you.and i will.
raudhah,please stop making me feel irritated and annoyed.i'm begging ya.i really want to enjoy my holiday to the max.
abang,stop being such an ass.cos your lame jokes never make me feel thrilled.

2008-12-04T12:01:00.004+08:00

I wanna roll some sushi!
mum suggested the idea
planning to roll some later
we just need to buy the seaweed
yummeyyy

my right ear is like blocked
researched about it
they say it's due to sinus
yea.
whatever it is.

i just can read between the lines.this sucks.i hate it.laugh all you can.

2008-12-03T16:24:00.003+08:00

I'm Beat

Bad day,maybe

2008-12-02T10:29:00.003+08:00

I hate it when mum pretends nothing has happened
I hate it when I have to pretend nothing has actually happened;
making me feel even guilty
urgh
thanks sister cos you just ruined my day
and you just make me hate you more than ever
-

when is mum coming back home?
i can't stand my brothers
they just stuck out their tongues at me
whatever,kids
it's dec than means one month and ?days left

Checklist
Homework X
School bag washed? X
outing with my gundus X

there's so much to do.it's uncountable.

2008-12-01T13:48:00.002+08:00

okay,
changed my blogskin
but
love the teddy pic(above)
took the pic days ago.
and it's edited(of course)
(:
-
gonna come back to sch again to collect some textbooks which were not available last time
hais
-
urgh
i hate being at home
my twins will be screaming like nobody's business
and my sis will be there trying to stop them
and i will be adding to the noise pollution by screaming "shut up"
-_-
and it goes on
blah
oh,my bro is taking up driving course next yr.and if he passes,
that means dad will lend his car to him
and he can use it whenever he wants
not fair!
but,
mum said that I can go for driving license when im 18(i wonder if its legal?)
heeps
just FOUR more years and i'll own my driving license
as if the test will be easy.
haisss
but,i'll give it a try
oh,
shhhhh
need to go off now
very hungry
=)

2008-11-29T13:37:00.002+08:00

~~my life=Suckish,messy,annoying~~
urgh,
does human beings think the same thing most of the same time?
iwonder.

2008-11-28T23:03:00.002+08:00

(interesting rightt?)

Drank coffee this morning

not able to sleep,
I think.
(sigh)

2008-11-27T12:15:00.002+08:00

Havent been on the comp for more than 3 days
yea
Had been really busy during these 3 days
Mondayy-Went out with Zakiah
Had a hell lot fun with shopping at Plaza Singapura
Well,I managed to find a small pink pouch to keep my phone and money.
And zakiah,i hope you love your new ripcurl pencil case(:

Tuesdayy-Dad wasn't working on that day.so we decided to paint my new bookshelf with spray
.Now,it's pink.(mum's idea)

Wednesday-since i've got a new shelf,that means i had to transfer all the books to that shelf.urgh
really troublesome.
Still wondering whether i shud throw away my exam papers?
hais.
the books-hald done.still need to empty stuffs from the boxes.

and,as for today
mum just nagged at me
kept on asking me to tidy my room
bu,i didnt care
it's been 3 days since i lay my hands on the keyboard(;

-

bloody bro deleted my photos in the digital cam.
like fcuk,
it's a family cam.
not yours.
ayah didnt even care if i used the cam
why must you be so busybody?
and,please remember,
i do not have a camera phone in my hands rightt now
but just wait,
when i got my new phone,
i wont even touch the digital cam.(oh,as if)
this is like UNFAIR.

2008-11-23T11:03:00.005+08:00

badly need new jeans.
my jeans are like getting shorter.
not really obvious
but bahh
I can't stand the sight when I'm wearing it

mum&dad out to johor
Looking forward to sushi for lunch
=P
oh,
i really hope they will buy clothes for me there
as in,
tees
or jeans?(nah)

StuFFs that I really want to but:
-TeeS
-new school bag(i dont care if my old one is still in good condition.)
-haversack
-cashhh

I really really need cash(will try to ask mum for a loan,maybe?)
im tired of staying indoors

2008-11-22T13:15:00.005+08:00

love my blog songs can?
okay.
found the answer for my previous question
Ans:depressed
urghhhh
mum always nag when I on the comp(seriously)
whatever

back to what I want to post
oh,my hiccups just stopped
after like more than 10 min?
ahas.

I'm starting to hate myself,
yes I'm really am.
i justfelt im not balanced

Gummy bears eating their own mates."I wish i could do that."
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